If I ever hear that laugh again

There's always been a fear
In the back of my mind
That I might see you again like this,

But I had myself convinced that if I did
I would finally tell you
That i'm no longer afraid,

But you and I both know that I'm a liar.

I can hear you laugh from around the corner.
The one where you throw your head back,
Where your eyes look even more deranged than usual.

I tell myself to pretend I don't recognize you,
or maybe,
I'll pretend to be another person entirely.

We've never met.
We've never met.
I wish we'd never met.

But you see me.
You say hello,
I say it's nice to see you,

But you and I both know that I'm a liar.